A Gif to Help Define God/Allah.

It isn’t much. But when this gif came across my facebook feed, I felt all my worries, fears and anxiety disappear. It is to me, the single most accurate description visually of God.

Most muslims will say, you can’t define Allah in any way…but I was never one to not try to solve unsolvable mysteries in this life. I see this gif as the perfect descriptive of Allah, visually.

Imagine that the background is completely black and void of stars, but this center source of energy is constantly firing and creating energy and light waves.

A force or energy that creates…then destroys after maximum potential is reached….and then recreates all over again for the sake of love. I would even say that this light is not God/Allah, but it is the force or energy BEYOND this light that expresses itself divinely that is God.

Do you feel it too when looking at this gif? Can you see both creation and destruction?


What Plagues My Awakened Mind: How I Can Not Be Happy Till We All Are Happy.

A few weeks ago, I wrote about my daily experiences in this awakened state in devotion to God and to seeing the unity all around me. Yes, it is a peaceful outlook on life, and I have much to smile and be grateful for, but something has made me restless as well knowing what I know.

They say ignorance is bliss, and this can be true. After you turn the “switch” on, you never go back to being the same person, but let me also say new things and experiences bother you. My days are not all peaceful in this world. There is a great pain in discovering the truth of our oneness and interconnection.

The pain is realizing that we who see the world in this unity are a small minority (they are called indigos or violet conscious humans) that is growing, but sometimes not fast enough. When you look at the news, human behavior, and unconscious actions of people towards one another, you realize that you are sometimes very alone in this world.

There are times when I can connect to another person in the same frame of mind, but the saddest thing is to see us both hit a wall, where we KNOW that our enlightenment can only go so far. The truth is, my happiness is nothing without others’ happiness. Take it from me…I have been to the point of happiness and bliss knowing our special unity under God, and yet, I still realize I can not be permanently happy or at bliss till we all are.

My heart and mind is too connected to others now to ignore the suffering others are experiencing either at their own hands unconsciously or at the hands of others. Unfortunately I am not the world’s wealthiest person or have hands to extend to every single soul to help. So I do what I can do within my power of influence, and I now sit and wait, hoping that in my lifetime, this peace of mind can be reached when I see everyone reach bliss.

There are people on this planet that believe a New Earth would have to come about at the demise of 2/3rds of the world population due to exaggerated claims about over population. Who are they to decide who lives and who dies? I do not see this as a true solution. In fact, I see New Earth as only something that everyone would have to collectively create. Every single living individual would have to reach a point of true integrity for themselves, their families, and for others. Death naturally would be on God’s terms as the creator source that runs this universe. Death induced by others out of ego and fear is a sin on humanity. Only when everyone starts to want to expand the experiences of each other, can peace be created for all.

What needs to happen next, in my idealistic vision of the future, is that everyone needs to have their own private “revolution” internally.  Everyone needs to go on a spiritual battle to fight their inner demons. They need to stop playing the victim and to stand up for what they believe in. They need to wake up and see this life as a less permeant state but also determining our next state of what we experience as heaven or hellish states. People need to take personal responsibility for every karmic tie and bind that they create on this earth to ensure a more fulfilled and happy soul.

When people start to take full responsibility for their life and to wish for good and peace for others, as well as themselves..this is when we will see world peace. This is the New Earth, that everyone has talked about with stars in their eyes.

Do not be deceived by the elite or eugenic idea of a New Earth. This new world order can only come organically from everyone participating and not a group of people deciding the fate of others. Everyone on this planet needs to take their life by the reigns and look over at their neighbors in other countries and other homes. When everyone awakens and wishes peace for one another, that is when the nightmare will be over and a new dream can begin.

Not sure, if this is the final step of our human evolution or only our real beginning, after the wars and bloodshed are realized as “unnecessary”, but I know  I am not alone in this thinking…when we all help each other rise, we all rise.

I write this not to depress you or drag you into my sorrows, but instead to motivate and to show an envisioned potential for us all.

Maybe after each soul realizes their unity under God, then I can finally get a good rest. Inshallah….


A Kid Talent Show & Glimpse Into Our Beautiful (Possible) Future.

Yesterday I got a chance to see a talent show at an elementary school, and I can not tell you enough of the chills I experienced while watching it.

I work with these children, and so I don’t normally get to see them in this heightened state of “talent”, but WOW…I was absolutely floored by the beautiful voices, talented composers, dancers, actors, gymnasts. I was actually in a state of euphoria as I watched them.

Something I remember very clearly in my research and study about advanced alien civilizations, is the idea that the aliens that have come to guide humanity say they are jealous in the respect that the humanities such as art, music, dance, theater is what sets humans apart from other species in this universe. I am not joking, the Pleadians have often time said that they are really impressed and in awe with humans and their almost divine ability to create beautiful works of art whether with the hands or the body.

It gave me great joy to see the beautiful creation of God unfolding in this moment while watching my fellow beings. Although, they are really young, they were REALLY good and it made me extremely excited for our future. I am a bit of a beauty lover. I love all things of beauty in form, meaning and feeling. I am not talking about superficial beauty, I am talking about the type that hits you at the core of your  heart and mind, and gives you happy tears or goosebumps.

To me, Heaven is a state of mind, that you enter where EVERYTHING becomes beautiful. While I believe that beauty is subjective, there is also an objective truth to beauty that people do know, or at the very least FEEL.

I am not sure more people realize that humans were created AFTER the angels of God. Although Angels are said to be the most beautiful creation connected to the divine, the story that is unfolding may be that beauty will be known in a multitude of ways. Perhaps human beings will become just as beautiful as the angels, or the advanced older beings in our universe?

Just maybe we are seeing the human being species grow into a more beautiful creation daily, and this is evolution. No matter what humans look like on the outside, the beauty that shines out of their creations is what is the truth. Human nature can be very ugly, but when there is the opportunity to express themselves through the humanities, this is where humans really shine.

We are the music makers, the artists, the philosophers, the governors of the human body to move in ways athletes do, the great writers of the universe, and there is no telling where we can go from here. One thing is clear: Kids are extremely talented today and hold great potential to create great beauty on earth.

So much so, that maybe one day, humanity will be able to wipe away the ugliness of war, greed, bloodshed….who knows…

But after seeing that show, I am excited for us.


The Sacred Wood Cherished by the Arts and the Muses – Pierre Puvis de Chavannes

art of muses

Allah in the Shawshank Redemption: The Law of Balance

One movie that I absolutely LOVE as a muslim woman, is the Shawshank Redemption by Frank Darabont. It is not a fantasy film by any means (which I do love the most), but there is a strong spiritual theme that glows softly in this film.

Once again, I am in home in bed, I have a pinched nerve in the back and it gave me a painful case of sciatica.  I am watching movies to try to keep my mind off the discomfort and pain, and last night I ended up finishing this movie which I have seen before, but never went through the entire end of it, until last night.

Morgan Freeman is phenomenal in this movie, I enjoy his narrative in telling the story about Andy, the banker who was convicted of murdering his wife and her lover. I do not want to ruin the movie, so I won’t give too much away for those who truly have not seen this movie yet. It’s an oldie, but a goodie that everyone should watch.

Yes, it is extremely brutal and sad in some parts, but so beautiful in others. It reminded me much about life and how you need to see the glimmers of “heaven” while on earth in order to keep you going. Cause reality is often times very cold, dense, and seems so far away from God. But when you truly look at the subtleties of human behavior and nature around you, you can see glimpses of our amazing Creator.

Although, the theme of hope, forgiveness, and redemption is very clear in this film as far as criminals and convicts finding their morality in a place that is almost void of it, there is another theme that I have not seen others talk about on the internet pertaining to this movie, that I would like to: Balance.

There is much confusion as to what or who is God. And in this movie, it is entirely clear to me WHAT is God. Although the image of God is very misty in my mind, as the creator force behind this beautiful universe, I still can see a trait shining through that has shown up in my life and in others.

It’s the LAW of truth. As Gandhi once said, “There is no God higher than Truth.”

But what does this really mean? For me it means that all things are balanced in the end. Some may call it karma and some may call it “balancing of the universe”. Either way it is clear in this movie, that when bad things happen to a good person, AND they still remain honest, kind, and patient. God will always show them the way.

Andy was in prison for a crime he did not commit for 20 years. He was patient, kind and put forth the effort to help others around him even in his predicament.  He did not judge the other prisoners for what they have done and I thought it was a beautiful moment when he asked for the name of the new prisoner that died that first night. While nobody else seemed to care, Andy was open and vulnerable to showing that he did. God showed him the way out of that prison because he did not deserve being there. It was an imbalance of the universe for an innocent man to be locked up and treated so badly.

Andy’s good fortune at the end, seemed to make up for all the bad misfortunes. It was as if the scales all of a sudden have been leveled and now for the rest of his life, he could live out his years in peace and getting back the “love” that he showed others.

Yes, Andy was a very loving person. He was not expressive, nor really a warm person, but he genuinely CARED about his fellow inmates and made it a point to give them the little moments of joy he physically could provide. Such as asking for beers for them to have on their last days of working for the guards, and playing the beautiful opera music across the prison that day for all to enjoy for a brief time. He also helped others by teaching them, and setting up a great library for the prisoners to enrich their mind while in the cell.

It is such an amazing contrast to the religious warden, who seemed to believe in God, yet he never even followed his own Bible. He was a cruel man, in lip service to God. And in the end, you see who truly was blessed by God/Allah for the things they have done for others. The warden received his karma and took the cowardly way out of it, while Andy truly did receive his redemption he so deserved.

God is the balancer. The subtle guidance towards finding a way out towards freedom. The force behind this universe, that creates the good to check the bad in the world. The force behind this world, and your consciousness that guides you to creating balance again once you make the wrong choices. If you follow the straight path of kindness, truth, selflessness, and love, you will always see things balanced out in your favor. I have seen it in mine. I have seen it in others, and now I have seen it in countless films including this one that observe the human condition of karma.

There is no escaping from the truth, just as there is no escaping from God as the Ultimate Reality. If an innocent person is wronged, they will be righted eventually. The time is not known when they will break free of the illusion of bad things happening to them. But if they remain true to themselves and don’t follow Satan (ego or dark desires), they will not help, but be able to find peace and see the rewards that they have earned in this life or the next state of existence.


What is the Inevitable Reality?



That Day will be the sure Reality: Therefore, whoso will, let him take a (straight) return to his Lord!

What is God?

the Truth of everything hidden, concealed, manipulated, twisted, made as an illusion to oppress, hurt, take from others.

God will NOT let the truth be unknown forever. Eventually the Ultimate Reality will be known. We do not know when this will be, but we should strive to align ourselves to it by being truthful with ourselves and others.

In the end, truth will always become your redeemer and eventually your liberator.




Earth Is a School: The Religious Texts Are Tests.


I have come to see that the ancient texts are trials for the soul, they reflect what state of mind we are in as we read them. How we process the information given to us shows a lot of what kind of person we are because you filter information through your own personal perspectives and experiences.

A person who is full of hate, will see the religious texts to tell them to hate others. A person who belongs to a male dominated culture will see the words as a way to dominate women. A terrorist will see these texts as a command to put terror in hearts. A racist will see the verses speaking about their superiority.

If you never read them, this shows also too that you are a person who is not a seeker of God or any information outside the self, which can show a bit of selfishness or the ego identification leaning. You have avoided the tests, and you have also avoided the deeper learnings. You may be required to find another way to find and understand God, now.

But a loving seeker who loves God and others, will see the texts as glad tidings to them and to others because they have been patient, good, and love God.  These are the people of Understanding that know that God is LOVE.


Quran 3:7

It is He who has sent down to you, [O Muhammad], the Book; in it are verses [that are] precise – they are the foundation of the Book – and others unspecific. As for those in whose hearts is deviation [from truth], they will follow that of it which is unspecific, seeking discord and seeking an interpretation [suitable to them]. And no one knows its [true] interpretation except Allah . But those firm in knowledge say, “We believe in it. All [of it] is from our Lord.” And no one will be reminded except those of understanding.